"There are gaps. But none of them change the broad strokes. Mainly just to clarify there are whys and hows that I'm not going to be able to answer. I manage on the day to day, and the rest is just...something I have to live with."

She's stalling, she knows. Taking the longer route to what she needs to say. Finally, she just shakes her head.

"...Gods, this is awkward. You barely know me, but...I'm going to take a risk and ask, when you say you hear the blood, does it call to you to spill it? Does it fill you with the need to do it? Like you'll tear apart if you don't?"